WASTELAND

2011-10-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

i thought she was wrng, when she was so right.
do all good things always comes to an end.
will we always be the ones suffering from all of these pains tht we are gg through in silence?
will she ever realise her old-inconsiderate-selfish-bitch behavioural?
will she ever wake up frm her long-lost-dickhead-fairytale-dreams-that-only-came-true-30years-later?
will it be the same in 30 years to come?
how long can it lasts? how far can you go? how are we suppose to be like how thngs used to be back than what is now?

since the 4th,
i nvr really understood.. .. life, like how i used to.
i take it as it goes, looking strong-feeling rather lost.
whats a home if its empty and rustic?
thy are all the greatest memories that i'll ever have and will ever get.

you are the light against all darkness, in strength and in weakness.
the knight in shining armour, the wills againts all odds.

2011-08-04T01:16:00.003+08:00

i nvr wnted to be in the mddle of your way.
i nvr expctd thngs to be the way tht it is.
i nvr thght it wld be ths hrd.
i nvr wnt to see you agn.
so i guess thts the end,
to our beautiful love story.

lv lk rckts

2011-07-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

ts gry tdy

2011-07-27T01:55:00.004+08:00

2011-07-22T00:52:00.002+08:00

i wish fr evrythng to be mine,
no.
greedy am i not.
i jst wnt my wish to be grntd.
i wanna be an artist, no mtter wht.
i wanna paint, mke potraits, sketch, ply with clay, evrythng.
i dnt wanna live in ths area of rstrcton.
ths is not life, as wht we all hve evr wntd.
bills, gdgts, lking preety, so high-end.
you dnt need that.

all you nd is peace, love and happiness,
regarglss your rce, lngag or rlgon.

2011-07-19T14:59:00.002+08:00

this life that im in.
its full of surprises, i knw for sure.
i hope tht one day, someday,
somebody,
will no take me for granted.

2011-07-11T20:54:00.002+08:00

whn its all emty and rstic.
i only hv myself to dpend on.
these walls ive built, its tme tht i break them dwn.
ths life tht im leavng, its tme fr sme chnge.
ths is nt good, ths will nt do.
its no mre let the path brng me to wvrevr it tks.
its time for some plns. its time to grw up, and nt let fate and faith dcide fr me.
i mean, thts life? i guess.
bt i cnt help, for lettng
fate n faith
decide for me.
well,
i guess its btr tht way?
right?
maybe?

i dont know... .

2011-07-08T14:44:00.002+08:00

thrs so mny thngs tht i wanna do before anythng else happens to me.
i feel sick, like rly sick.
of waking up to aftrns with no sense of direction, everyday i wake up thnkng god im still alive.
wht cld be worse, dying in my slp?
anywys, i hv alwys drmt of being an artist since young.
mum asked once, what do i wanna do when i grow up, i said artist.
and so frm now on, i am gg to chaze this dream of mine only to realize tht alls just a drm.
all the mre, it takes two hands to clap.

all my frnds, havng full time jobs, stability, wrkng as late as till 4am.
my hrt goes out to all of thm.
i miss thm so much, 3yrs of frndship, alwys in my hrt. dng projcts tgthr, sleepless nghts, porn nghts, smokng tgthr, everythng.
gosh.
who thought.

chnges, time, wrld, frnds and fmily, lvd ones, evryne.

this hrt's full of lve, but none can see.
this hrt's full of pains, none can see.
this hrt feels, hears, sees wht no one feels, hears and sees.
this hrt dont lie.
this hrt knws it all.
this hrt lives in me frever.
i am thnkful, i hv a hrt,
tht knws wht it wnts, its desires, its love.

2011-07-08T01:54:00.002+08:00

Am I never good enough for anything?
Am I just a something to you? Or maybe a nothing?
Do you even care? Or hear? Or see?
What else do I see? What else can I see?
Hoplessness.
My self esteem.. .. Its.. ... pitch dark.

2011-04-18T15:09:00.002+08:00

I can't breathe, I can't feel myself.
I don't wanna start all over again.
Please..
I want to be in that arms for all time,
and if it's really you.. whom had broke it all for me.

I guess I rather stay out of this.

2011-03-03T01:59:00.002+08:00

I'm going backwards through time at the speed of light
I'm yours, you're mine
Two satellites
Not alone
No, we're not alone

A freeze-frame of your eye in the strobelight
Sweat dripping down from your brow
Hold tight
Don't let go
Don't you let me go

And I never was smart with love
I let the bad ones in and the good ones go
But I'm gonna love you like I've never been hurt before
I'm gonna love you like I'm indestructible
Your love is ultra magnetic and
it's taking over
This is hardcore
And I'm indestructible

Hands up in the air like we don't care
We're shooting deep into space
And the lasers split the dark
Cut right through the dark

It's just us we ignore the crowd dancing
Fall to the floor
Beats in my heart
Put your hands on my heart

And I never was smart with love
I let the bad ones in and the good ones go
But I'm gonna love you like I've never been hurt before
I'm gonna love you like I'm indestructible
Your love is ultra magnetic and
it's taking over
This is hardcore
Ooh and I'm gonna love you like
Like I've never been hurt before
I'm gonna love you like I'm indestructible
Your love is ultra magnetic and it's taking over
This is hardcore
And I'm indestructible

And I never was smart with love
I let the bad ones in and the good ones go
But I'm gonna love you like I've never been hurt before
I'm gonna love you like I'm indestructible
Your love is ultra magnetic and
it's taking over
This is hardcore
Ooh and I'm gonna love you like
Like I've never been hurt before
I'm gonna love you like I'm indestructible
Your love is ultra magnetic and it's taking over
This is hardcore
And I'm indestructible

2011-02-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

I cannot be who you have always wanted me to be.
You are right.

2011-02-18T13:36:00.003+08:00

I'm not the one to complain of bad dreams
It's like disease, but without a life
It's all a scene with this great directive
That we're all lost and we're stuck in time
We feel alone in a strange blue ocean
And we're all scared as death to die

I'm not the one to admit it's helpless
I have a sense that we will be alright
I wish for peace with electric silence
To keep our hearts beating on our minds
And we will see that we're all connected
When we awake to the tunnel's light

Suit up, boys
We're on vacation
With endless stay and reservations
Saddest girls
Who will await while dying inside
How will they get by?

Suit up, boys
Let's ride, it's the weekend
Get down, girls
And dance with your best friend
Show yourselves, and take what you ask for
Let it go, no fights on the dance floor

The night gets better, but wait, so wonderful
They move together and dance so colorful
And kiss like flowers that breathe with pheromones
Songs get louder, it feels so natural

2011-02-16T23:27:00.003+08:00

what if one day, your feelings about things change?

forever?

and what you had yesterday,
was all
a-good-for-nothing-cheap-talk?

how?

2011-02-06T01:34:00.003+08:00

I'm coming home, I'm coming home, tell the world that I'm coming home..
Let the rain wash away, all the pain of yesterday.

For a moment, I thought that that was it all.
For a second I stop, I stared.
That future of dreams and hopes...

2011-02-04T03:39:00.003+08:00

Do you believe in hallucinations?
Silly dreams or imaginations?

Tonight,
Memories they soon delete.

I love you.
And whatever that it is will be will be.

2011-01-30T22:00:00.002+08:00

Oh I felt your spell
And all alike it's been like hell
Every single time the cycle goes
In and out of time
In and out of fear
I'm getting left behind
I see your glow
Your eyes so kind
They kill as well
I bear in mind
Every word I say is a silent thing
And a solid wish
Will you lay with me?

And you're all that I desire.

2010-10-17T01:22:00.002+08:00

never really thought that we'll be growing fat together

because I AM STUPID too

2010-09-06T16:00:00.005+08:00

Blue's Clues

2010-08-10T02:48:00.004+08:00

color me up down, left right, bottom top, left right.
when you feel blue, i feel you too.
breakfast in bed please :)

2010-08-07T18:02:00.002+08:00

this moment of emptiness
so cold, unbearable.
come home and tell me
that everything will be okay like how it used to be.

2010-08-04T13:51:00.002+08:00

"hate in my heart, love in my mind
i seen nights full of pain, days of the same
you keep the sunshine, save me the rain
i search but never find, hurt but never cry
i work and forever try, but i’m cursed, so never mind
and it’s worse, but better times seem further and beyond
the top gets higher the more that i climb
the spot gets smaller, and i get bigger
because all the bullshit, it made me strong, motherfucker
it hurts, but i never show this pain you’ll never know
if only you could see just how lonely and how cold"

sometimes, its better when they say motherfucker
frustrations killing me softly.

Somethings Beautiful Things

2010-07-27T00:02:00.007+08:00

safe and warm

2010-07-17T14:57:00.001+08:00

an angel that lives in the heart
pure and serene
yet
nothing of that can be of me or you
because we ain't no angel but beings of differences and cries.

2010-07-15T01:20:00.002+08:00

wonder what happen to you when i let time pass us by
what went wrong, what went right, undecided, so clueless, so selfish.
what about it what abot now what about later what about how you think is right what about what i think is wrong?
what about it?
i dont know what im doing i dont want to know whats happening i am not going to know and i will never want to know
just let it be let it be
because when it is to let it be, it will then be what it is to be
things falling apart nothing is everlasting because it is never lasting

you care enough to be caring for things?
you see things like i do, not.

where are you?

2010-07-05T02:55:00.002+08:00

i dont know what to think or write or talk or whatever about whatever nots.
its all mundane.
nothing superficial to anything thats not superficial.
this pursuit of dreams i am always thinking about.
seems to let me be what where whatever that i wanna be.
this pursuit of forever pursuing nothing.. .
feeling nothing but feeling something.

like one say "an ass is not an ass".
so can i ask? "am i who i am?" or maybe "you are who i am?" or maybe, just maybe "we are not what we are, but who are we?"

nothings making sense, becauase i dont like to make sense, and i am a no sense talker mothafucka.

and when someone say they'll be there for you till the end of time, they are lying.
because nothing is suppose to make sense.

what are we living for then.
for better or for worse.

fly me away. where i can not be seen.
take me away. to somewhere ive never been before.

FIDYYANA

2010-06-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

now that your time is not mine
you could be with it for as long as you want.

your silence, i do not fear
your courage, empathy
your loss, is my beginning.

cheaptalk; dont matter no more.

FIDY, my favour is done.
ps: dont emo emo again okay.

HAHAHAHA
<3

2010-05-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

numb beyond words
for all that it is i know nothing but i know that you know that i know something.
and knowing the fact that perfection leads to destruction
is that it is.
for somehow over the rainbow over the clouds and the universe
we'll make it through.
for the lessons taught will be lessons to be fathomed
for each will be of a different kind
and knowing that the end does not matter.
only to know that the cause is not of a matter.

2010-05-14T22:51:00.002+08:00

They say knowing nothing is better than knowing something.
I am not afraid to know nothing neither am I afraid of knowing something.
Keeping these anger keeping these faults'
Explosive.

Give me air, Give me greens, Give me, Give me
Holding back Counting steps Counting days Catching eyes
I am not like you neither am I like me
I am nothing for I am none.

Everything is what everything is for they will not be everything if it is not meant to be everything.
Everything that lives will die and for everything that's dead will come back to life.

Live like the sky, so high and so bright, so starry and so shiny

But I am not, like the Sky or the Mountain or the Rainbow or the Ocean
I am nothing in my eyes
But I know for I am something in your eyes.
I know for you will pass this and
I know for you will be by your nothing because you are my something.

Can nothing be something, someone, somebody, someday, sometimes?
Because I know for nothing is something.

I miss you.

stupid

2010-04-28T00:10:00.003+08:00

this human behaviour i see around, is not what i control.
this human behaviour i see around, is not human friendly.
this is what i see, this is what you get.
i see human destruction. gods creation was perfectly beautiful until man of different kind invaded.
this behaviour i see, i dont adore, i dont like.
its absurd. really.

why must we think of oneself then others?
knowing that we live for ourselves dosent make us the only one in the world.
knowing that we live and eventually die dosent make us different from others.
knowing that human categorize themselves in their own human way, dosent make you different from others.
knowing the importance of knowledge dosent make you the only smart one.
knowing that we live our lives differently dosent make us different.

why cant we be fair?
why cant we be nice?
why cant we try understanding others a little more?
why must we always get what we want?
why must we disrespect our humankind?

these unkind, unreliable, undesirable, unappreciated, ungrateful species.
i dont understand.

you are screwed.

this day

2010-04-27T01:02:00.002+08:00

aprils coming to an end. mays drawing near.
the feeling of enjoyment, the feeling of forever wanting, the feeling of emotions.
pouring out. like water it flows. like stars it glows. like you and i we grow.
like tears they flow. like happiness i know. like you like me. like before and after.

shooting stars i see, rattling leaves we hear, windy nights we cuddle, lonely nights we chit and we chat, dark nights we shine so bright, gloomy nights i skip, empty days i move on, beautiful feelings we adore, wonderful weekedns worth waiting for, together i see us, in two we trust, in two we love, in two we see. in two we miss. in two i see you, in two you see me.

2010-04-13T01:22:00.005+08:00

brain stinks, lazy day, everyday.

*freak *_*

2010-03-16T01:20:00.002+08:00

watching them footsteps march
watching everyday from dawn till dusk
watching the clock go tick and tock
watch those eyes
watch your smile
watch you now

i'll be watching you, love.

2010-01-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

whats happening at home ma?

things are not like how it was meant to be.
everything was never meant to be but ma.?
whats happened to us?
whats happened to me?
whats happened to you?
wheres dad?

2009-12-30T02:21:00.003+08:00

2009 is coming to an end.
all the sitting and thinking got me thinking
that
it's gonna be all great.

i promise.

2009-12-23T03:26:00.003+08:00

just when you thought that everything would go wrong.

just when you thought that everything would be such a failure.

just when you thought of something that you've never thought about.

just when
you needed to know what was going on then,
comes out now.

just when the time is right.

just when you learn
to live, to love, to let go and to love again.

just when it happens.

just
be
glad.

2009-12-21T00:59:00.001+08:00

all's coming to an end yea
all's gonna be over
all's gonna crash and burn

2009-12-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

its always a different monday
to the same monday.
its always a different reaction
to the same situation.

thats what it is.
a different perspective
in the same view.

_______________________________________

uncontrolable thoughts' driving things insane
beautiful love's coming back, right ahead of us.
im in love this time, i know i am.

2009-11-25T00:54:00.004+08:00

the past is only the future with the lights on.

2009-11-22T03:09:00.002+08:00

if theres one thing that i could ever do.
i'd love for me to be true.
not for you
but myself.

2009-11-01T19:17:00.003+08:00

falling raindrops from the sky
like a teardrop it falls to the ground
droplets of sorrow
pierceing through the heart

2009-10-26T01:09:00.003+08:00

depressed desperation
hauntings haunting, feels like halloween
dance to forget
dance to remember.
take me away to a place where i could stay
in the land of nothings only for today.

2009-10-12T01:40:00.002+08:00

Complications my claim to fame
And I cant believe theres another
Constantly just another
I cant avoid what I cant control
And I'm losing ground
Still I cant stand down

I know you stay true when my world is false
And everything arounds breaking down to chaos
I always see you when my sight is lost
And everything around is making time a chaos

2009-09-22T00:37:00.002+08:00

do the damage that's been done

2009-09-21T21:00:00.004+08:00

beautiful people

2009-09-18T03:56:00.003+08:00

lets makes love and waste time shall we?

2009-09-11T01:32:00.003+08:00

could we stay like what was before then what is now?
could we reminisce about what is all that we are?
time aint gonna stop for its gonna tick and tock
everyone's moving forward for i am not.
never wanting to grow, never wanting to wake up.
darkness is all that surrounds.
cold and empty, full or mystery.

2009-09-06T02:22:00.005+08:00

Holidays are here, FINALLY.

I have a million trillion things that I'd love to do, I'd love to do, I'd love to do!

Like cycling all around Singapore, Making a whole journey of some life story and put it in a book, A comfy home for MIKA-EL, Buy lots and lotssa blink-blink lights and stuff it on the ceiling, Geting wasted, really, Waste time and Catch the morning sun and Whatever that may come.

BUT I think we'll be called up to go back to school AGAIN to refine shits.
What a wonderful world.
Thanks ah, no rest at all then.

Well done girls.
Hope we all learnt something along the way.

Lets get together sometime people.

2009-09-01T00:41:00.002+08:00

im numbed by the feelings that i feel everyday.

fairytale

2009-08-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

ive been watching your world from afar
ive been trying to be where you are
and ive been secretly falling apart
i'll see

to me youre strange and youre beautiful
youd be so perfect with me but you just cant see
you torn every head but you just dont see me

ill put a spell on you
youll fall asleep and ill put a spell on you
and when i wake you
ill be the first thing you see

sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first
sometimes, the first thing you want never comes
all i know, the waiting is all that you can do
sometimes.

lie

2009-08-11T06:06:00.000+08:00

can run but cant hide
can laugh but cant cry
can smile only for awhile

pleases me, always.
sleeping late, always.
wasting time, always.

never ever thought
of what i thought of the possiblities
of the unnessessary.

its 615AM.
just finished my work load.

goodnight.

2009-08-06T02:16:00.001+08:00

2009-08-05T00:48:00.003+08:00

infinite
and thats because it feels so right when its wrong and feels so wrong when its right.
immeasurably great.
unlimited, boundless, endless.
i'd say love like space.
you'd say love like never before.
math.
boundless region of space.
problem solving.
infinity.

2009-07-27T00:54:00.005+08:00

i dont understand
why is it that i always do the wrongs for i know the rights will be of a greater benefit.
i speak unpoken words for all thats left is just a cookie crumb.
for whats hidden will be apart of me and whats not hidden will be a part of you.
i may leave you alone through the night
for i believe tommorrow will be of a brighter sight.
and it dosent mean i dont need you here, now or whenever
its just, i want to hide, i have my pride, you're in my mind
alone is all that i am for now.
silence isnt killing me
for i've learnt that silence sets me apart from the rest thats there.
night is ending for dawns approaching
you will live in my heart
like the air that i breathe through the night.
stay with me
together we will be.

2009-07-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

its eleven and nothings happening.
great
oh so great

goodnight.
just dont bother.

you and me

2009-07-26T19:01:00.001+08:00

Scorpio have an intensely emotional nature and are capable of deep feelings. If one deceives Scorpio in love, then Scorpio are his worst enemy because Scorpio will suffer agonies of jealousy, resentment and even hatred. Scorpio have intense concentrated nature in which tenacity is a fundamental trait. Scorpio have plenty of determination and unflinching courage to achieve the goal. Scorpio look the life as a battle to be won. An obstacle creates a challenge and an outlet for Scorpio dynamic. Constructive or destructive abilities. Scorpio can not allow anyone to sand in Scorpio way. Scorpio have strong likes and dislikes, have inflexible will power with great self reliance and that is why Scorpio may or may not trust or rely on people. Scorpio are secretive, lose temper quickly, get irritated and are highly sexed.

As regards love life is concerned, Scorpio are intensely emotional, passions and desires are definite qualities. The urge to possess Scorpio partner, body and should, will also be strong. If Scorpio fail in selecting a right partner, then Scorpio suffer agonies, jealousy, frustration and unhappiness. Scorpio main assets are power, purpose, judgement, penetrative insight and fierce determination which be used wisely not for downfall. Scorpio is called KEETA meaning reptile, which shows destructive nature if negative qualities arise in Scorpio. This sign indicates both characters, destructive and creative aspiring attainment of higher ethical virtues. Scorpio are best detectives and fond of investigation mysteries and occult. Blessed with power of intuition.

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Being an intellectual sign, Gemini are witty and intelligent. Gemini enjoy investigation and experiments with new ideas. Gemini have restless nature. Gemini love change and Gemini like variety in all spheres of Gemini life. Gemini lack real depth of feelings. Gemini are quick in grasping and learning. Gemini can do things better than others but lack in determination, quick decision and concentration.

Gemini are argumentative, ambitious and a good advisor, Gemini are also very clever, progressive, and Gemini refuse to be bound by rules. Gemini like to be under the influence of opposite sex as Gemini fell variety is the spice of life. Gemini have a fault finding nature, the more romance, more happiness for Gemini with equally intelligent persons, otherwise bickering or separation. Precisely in love, Gemini are more likely to be light heartedly affectionate than deeply emotional and intensely passionate. Gemini like to share Gemini affection with many people as Gemini are adjustable to variety. Gemini will change Gemini profession more then once. Gemini dexterous hands and versatile mind are Gemini greatest assets. Make most use of them.

2009-07-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

depressing.
not doing good in either way.
whatever.
momentum isn there anymore.
whatever.
its turning gray.
lost hope.
whatever.
sick
high on medication.
so many things to do with so little time
so many goals, so many dreams, so many thoughts

gone.

school.

God's Grace, I'll never forget.
You made things the way they are right now.
Thanks Fafa.
I miss you.

2009-06-14T23:14:00.005+08:00

i dont know either?
anyway, happy 19th birthday beau
Fa.

2009-05-21T01:30:00.001+08:00

this is the feeling

of sweet amour.

"illegal love beberds"

2009-05-18T01:54:00.003+08:00

my best isn't anybody else's best.
my all isn't anybody else's all.
my will isn't anybody else's will.

brain ain't functioning well

body here not soul
body here not mind

screw school

2009-05-13T01:33:00.001+08:00

the door's opened
thank you, you

LOVE

2009-05-12T16:31:00.007+08:00

SUCCESS:
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HANDWRITING:
To their credit, men do not decorate their penmanship. They just write.
Women use scented, colored stationery and they dot their “i’s” with circles and hearts. Women use ridiculously large loops in their “p’s” and “g’s.” It is a royal pain to read a note from a woman. Even when she’s dumping you, she’ll put a smiley face at the end of the note.

BATHROOMS:
A man has at most six items in his bathroom – a toothbrush,toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel.
The average number of items in a typical woman’s bathroom is 437. A man would not be able to identify most of these items.

MONEY MANAGEMENT:
A man is a person who will pay two dollars for a one dollar item he wants.
A woman will pay one dollar for a two dollar item that she doesn’t want.

HAPPINESS:
To be happy with a man you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

MARRIAGE EXPECTATIONS:
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn’t.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won’t change and she does.

MARRIAGE DECISIONS:
Men marry because they are tired.
Women marry because they are curious.
Both are disappointed.

MIRRORS:
Men are vain; they will check themselves out in the mirror.
Women are ridiculous; they will check out their reflections in any shiny surface – mirrors, spoons, store windows, toasters…

THE TELEPHONE:
Men see the telephone as a communications tool. They use the telephone to send short messages to other people.
A woman can visit her girlfriend for two weeks, and upon returning home, she will call the same friend and they will talk for three hours.

MARRIAGE AND THE FUTURE:
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband,
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

MEMORIES:
A woman will always cherish the memory of the man who wanted to marry her.
A man cherishes the memory of the woman who he didn’t marry.

MISTAKES:
Men often admit making a mistake.
The last woman who admitted that she was wrong, has not been found till now.

THE BATTLE:
A woman always has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

UNDERSTANDING WOMEN:
There are two times when a man doesn’t understand a woman – before marriage and after marriage.

WHAT A WOMAN WANTS:
Only two things are necessary to keep one’s wife happy…
- One is to let her think she is having her own way.
- The other is to let her have it.

LONGEVITY:
Married men live longer than single men, but married men are a lot more willing to die.
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LOVE
Love is the essence of every existing thing.
Love is the natural element of all things. The illimitable oceans of space are composed of the waters of Love.
Love is at once an ecstasy and an agony.
To love is to know happiness but not contentment, rapture but not peace, exhilaration but not satisfaction.
Ecstasy in its misery, hope in its fear, joy in its sorrow and sweet in its bitter.

Thank you, you.

yesterday today tomorrow

2009-05-09T18:42:00.003+08:00

1. vesak day = sit home + slack + spring cleaning
2. yesterday = wait + the longest bus ride ever + super humid + slack + games = wasting time

wait = one hour and thirty minute

bus ride = bus goes one round, the same route twice

slack = lepak

game = find words that starts with me/re/he/bu
like meter/meatballs/meteor
like redundant/refuse/revived
like helium/hell/helmet
like bulldozer/bulldog/bullet

lasted for about an hour
loser, kutik. HAHA.funny or what.

waste time = because it just what i do often

DAMMMN HILLLLLARIOUS

2009-05-02T14:09:00.002+08:00

11 sticks = not myself.
silence is all that i need for now, nothing else.

2 sticks = im fine

2009-04-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

sometimes,
all you gotta do is just speak.
not dont speak.

kuchi ur ne-neh

2009-04-15T04:45:00.001+08:00

hariz: kuchhikuchhikuchhi *CHOKE*
mia : *laughing* eh relax la *laughing*
hariz: *holding throat* water. .waterr, i need water
mia : u choke? *LMAO* liar
hariz: waterrrrrrrr!
mia : ok i really think u're choking *nah*

BOZO

2009-04-15T04:38:00.003+08:00

the security of being in your arms
the joy of feeling your love
the bliss of seeing your smile
when you talkt o me
my day lights up
when you whisper
those sweet nothings in my ear
my hear t skips a beat
when i feel your touch
my body feels a rush
is it those things that make me fall for you
it is those things that make me feel the way i do
that is why ure the third
u made me realize
that
maybe
we were meant to be

cant lose it

2009-04-15T01:40:00.002+08:00

the partys alright, i might wanna stop drinking
what were we talking about?
my body wont tell my mind what ive been thinking
before its outta my mouth

the minute i get upset, thats it, its over
im already outta the room
why cant i just forget that?
i know whats gonna hurt
theres not much else i can do

im breaking my own rules
becoming someone else
everybody says i oughtta get over myself
im thinking i cant move
if there isnt somewhere else
to go

ive probably made mistakes that ive forgotten
its all ambiguous now
id be willing to take the shape of what you wanted
i could just figure it out

never meant to be

2009-04-11T04:10:00.002+08:00

its never always easy expressing oneself out
it dont seem to matter anyway
it was never about you me us we they them theirs ours or whatever
its always about i
why is it so
selfish pathetic piece of pine

air surrounds us
breathing like nothing else matters
taking things for granted
it was never meant to be

family friends
it was never meant to be

pleasing everyone
like it mattered anyway
it was never meant to be

living under preassure
got no one to treasure
it was never meant to be

get up when you fall
get up when you fall
picking up the pieces
well
it was never meant to be

never meant to be
never meant to be

2009-03-25T15:02:00.001+08:00

adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta

di sebalik senyumanmu itu

kau juga merindui aku

2009-03-22T02:07:00.002+08:00

no use crying over spilt milk.
unspoken words
left like that
hanged.
for as much as i miss it
its not gonna come back

'stop, you aint gonna go anywhere. why are you doing this?'
ask yourself.

dear god.
i dont know.

November

2009-03-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. Make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. Amiable. Brave. Generous. Patient. Stubborn. Hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

2009-03-02T11:58:00.003+08:00

' a heart can jolt, can stumble, can shatter, can bend, can break, yet it never mattered
for mine's unharmed.
do the damage and make me feel closure.
make me feel
so teach me '

2009-02-23T11:57:00.003+08:00

endless road
uncertainty

undefined

Happy Bday Ma

2009-02-22T02:13:00.001+08:00

my words are snowflakes on a wilting tree
purpose; abstract
definition; unsure
give me a reason to row to the shore

2009-02-14T12:58:00.003+08:00

Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in

isolation from the rest.

2009-02-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

I can give you freedom from your guilt,
With a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.
Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand.
Wish the end.

2009-01-31T15:41:00.001+08:00

Big brown eyes
Longing for glory
Soft pink lips
Tell of the story

Horrors of the past
and hidden secrets
Dreams of the future
and sky high hopes

When I run my fingers
through your hair
I feel the softness
that I can't bear

Lying to yourself
isn't the right way
Give into the truth
and you won't be betrayed

Keep me close to your heart
And we will never part

Don't let go
Keep holding on
Don't let the dread show
Allow happiness to come

if i fall for you, would you feel the same way too.

2009-01-25T01:29:00.002+08:00

silence
seperation
distant
far
for all that u need to know is that.
but its not as easy as that.

2009-01-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

run.
please go away.

i lie
i die
i lie again.
& i cant seem to find a way.

2009-01-12T23:49:00.001+08:00

once an empty jar

2009-01-11T16:56:00.001+08:00

dreams dreams dreams, come true.
i felt the love amongst us friends, waiting, hoping, praying
that everything will be alright?

i thought that you'd do completly well without me there.
your loved one, everyone that you wanted to be there was there.
so i left.
too much tension, with everyone in the room.

i need a break.
and i dont think you even saw me there
but i
was there.

im cursed.
im sorry.

bby.
you amaze me.
its just the beginning.

2009-01-06T23:35:00.005+08:00

2008's gone, 2009 will be a better one

perfect isnt that perfect afterall.
everything that has happend in 2008 will just be that way.
2008 has be wondor-ous-full.
with friends, family, myself, loved ones, everyone.

before 2009,
*under the bridge*
'yammmmmmm-ed seng!!!'
'at least tipsy tipsy abit ah before 2009' words from baba suba.
'open-dancefloor'
'go home la mia'
'thanks for taking care of me' -__-

lets float n be glad

2008-12-24T00:38:00.001+08:00

for as far as it will go, it'll be hidden
deep in the corners of our hearts for whatever it is,
it takes sacrifice or whatever.
dont know whats gonna happen next for tomorrow has yet to come
and the future is
not in my hands
or yours
or theirs.
pretendence is all that it is for now.

it seems so right, but its not
it seems so wrong because it is
we choose the way we live
we mend it cuz its broken
we leave it cuz its not spoken
running around in circles
walking around un-noticed
sitting, thinking
stop.
it aint gonna be as easy as
A B C

bby i miss u

2008-12-17T19:22:00.003+08:00

how is it possible, no you tell me.
how can i miss you?

no it cant be happening to me
again.

2008-12-15T02:45:00.002+08:00

as weird as it is
as real as it maybe
as far as it may go
as long as it sill exists

it
cant be
right.

its all so wrong, very wrong.

maybe baby

2008-12-14T19:07:00.000+08:00

didnt thought that it would happen.
didnt thought that i'd feel the way i feel right now.
its just weird.

from god-knows-when.

its been creeping me out.
the chills i get.
the thoughts i think about.
the seconds spent.
the talks.

seriouslyits creeping me out and it cant be right.
it just cant be right.

maybe
just maybe

suckd

2008-12-09T02:03:00.006+08:00

TOM was right in front of my eyes on that very sunday.
im so in love with you, my love.
though the sound sucks or what not, i'll still remember that 7th dec, sunday @ nus.

schools been such a pain in the ass.
ive been slacking since forever.
always on 'cloud nine', ive never been this bad before.
it might just get worse the next time round.
suppose to be doing some 3d stuffs but it dont seem to work?

weird things been acting up on me latey.
its either me being weird as always,
or just someone else?
i dont know.
nevermind about that then.

everyones growing up.
or is it me, not growing up?

well, i might just be beginning to like you, my friend.

wind

2008-12-01T02:34:00.002+08:00

i feel you
youre like the wind
i feel you but i cant see you.

i miss you
badly.

your silence kills

im falling for you, but

it aint gonna work.

god save me

2008-11-26T21:16:00.010+08:00

anticipation

XOXO

surprisee!

colorfulbridge

fellowfriendswhosealwaysthere

first of was with the Guys&Fildza then to Zatie's SURPRISE Belated Birthday!
very great weekend with fellowfriends.
very wholesome indeed ^__^
loveyoupeople *muaks*

whatever it is

guess u should've just knew it before i quit:

'u dissappoint me mia'
just that and then of to bed,
there you go.
with tears in your eyes.

and all i did was to just say
'im sorry' the very next morning.

think its cool now? i dunno?

white lie

2008-11-24T02:31:00.003+08:00

'late night moon shining down on me
silence surrounds me with tears in the sky
capturing the content of you in my eyes'

|a well of tears|tears and sorrows|courage and endurance|

pretendence is all that i need for now.

thoughts

2008-11-22T03:01:00.000+08:00

as weird as it may seem,
ure like gone from the dead, never to return again.
mistakes after mistakes.
hope after hope, faith after faith
trust and lust.
lust that last.
its all

gone

vanished into tiny particles of the human cells?

i feel so numb i cant feel what i feel.
i feel so mad
i feel so angry
i feel so careless
so lost, confused again
sometimes
i wish i was brave
i wish i was stronger
wish i could feel no pain
wish i was you not i

i miss for all that you are,
i miss it, i miss you, i miss all of it.

for not having you like last time is like an alien thang to me now.
cuz i like being around you.
and i guess it will never happen again.

memories are all thats left.

bye

klan

2008-11-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

* a get back together thang

super kool

end-ed

2008-11-18T01:05:00.006+08:00

theres always an end to a start.
guess i'll just end it here.
its been awhile since i felt this way but
the emptiness keeps crawling in and i dont need that anymore.
no more emptiness, no more hoping and waiting for nothing, like whats being told.
truth is, i havent been waiting or hoping or what?
its just the feeling that i get
i dont know what feelings i have for you but
its just it.
no more.
im done.
with it.

cool.

i learn something new everyday
everything happens for a reason.

i feel cold when im around you
but then again

bye

THANKIU ^_^

2008-11-12T23:52:00.010+08:00

slacking like forever and always

praying hard to GOD

DE PRESENT

DE cold hard kiss

DE GIRLS

ah huiyyy, ah lia & ah mia

SUM IT UP ALL:
weekend was superb, although it was a tiring one
it was all worthwhile.
thanks to friends and family for making my Birthday a day not to be forgotten aand all your wishes and kisses and hand shakes and hugs and birthday song you guys sang for me.
THANKIU a milliom bllion trillion times!
all of my friends, I LOVE YOU *muackss*

and not forgetting mom and sis too, super!
love you ladies.

im just touched, cheh cheh cheh... .. .
but its for real kay.

thankiu peoples

XOXO

and not forgetting you too, although i think u've forgotten abt it or what not,
i'll still miss you ^_^
cuz its I MISS YOU, not you miss me.
so it dosent have to matter, does it?

tired

2008-11-07T01:02:00.003+08:00

freakking freakking exhautsed.
previous week's been really really hectic.
been running all over town, back and forth, back and forth.
its been a wild and wet ride down town, to school, back at home and back at work.
all four at the same time,
not counting the assignments and all.
FFUUUUHHH!

however hectic it maybe, friends will still be nicely
fit-ted into my stuffed and tight schedule.

so monday ay ayy will be a rest day, followed by tuesday, thursday and friday in school.
friday go to work, saturaday wake up early in the morning, do some religious thang, sunday back to work, and monday off day, not ocunting the times i have to SQUEEEEEEZEEE to do assignments and stuff.

i got a life man.
dammit, i want it back!
GRRRRRR.

k shall not complain, i like it that way.
heh.

and my back reallllly hurts,
not forgetting the 45 minute of running non stop,
all thanks to hariz.
THANKS AH!

silence

2008-10-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

certain things im unsure of.
tension building up.
forever lost.

guilt, trapped, controlled, pain.
guilt building up bit by bit by bit by bit
trapped cant move, cant live, cant breathe
controlled by things revolving around us
pain in love and in pain eh?
hah,

okaay.

Nicholas Sparks

2008-10-25T23:52:00.003+08:00

love is always patient&kind
it is never jealous
love is never boastful or conceited
it is never rude or selfish
it does not take offence&is not resentful
love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins,
but delights in the truth
it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope
&to endure whatever comes.

too beautiful to ignore
as beautiful as it is
and its never for real.

mile

2008-10-19T23:36:00.008+08:00

unspoken words

away

2008-10-14T00:06:00.002+08:00

I know you're kindda bad for me
Like a dirt cut on my knee
You're getting under my skin
But with a new excitment within

Now I'm alone with your woody scent
Looking stupid sniffing my hand
Thinking if I'd be played a toy
If I fell in love with a bad bad boy